The past two weeks have been a complete whirlwind. Life is changing for us, in a good way, but changing none the less. Emotions are running high. Happiness, sadness, excitement, nervousness, and a multitude of other feelings are presenting all at the same time. It has been challenging in the most exhilarating of ways.
We had been considering moving for a couple of years, but decided about three months ago to set a date. We wanted to leave within 24 months. We weren’t sure exactly where to, although Oregon was high on our list (because let’s face it, it is full of hippies like us). It was still a distant dream, though. Not something tangible that we really believed would happen.
When I got back from Vegas, however, things kicked into overdrive. I was excited to get to work, but Patrick was still brain clogged by his job. After discussing it for about a week, we came to the conclusion that we weren’t ever going to be able to accomplish what we wanted to with him working 60 hours a week, especially at a job where the environment is so unhealthy and stressful.
So we decided to expedite our move date… to immediately. We quite literally decided we were moving, and within five days had given away or sold most of our belongings. We have been living in an empty house for almost two weeks now, and it feels incredible.
It, however, has been emotionally draining to watch all of our possessions be hauled away. Not because of the actual stuff, but because of what it symbolizes.
This is the first house we have ever owned. It’s the home that we have watched our little boy grow up in thus far. He and his very first friend would jump off of our couches onto pillows on the floor and giggle hysterically… the kind of giggles that melted my heart as a mama and inspired my own deep belly laughs. Our bookshelves were filled with books that have consumed an important chunk of my life for the past 3 1/2 years. I’ve learned so much from them. Especially the glorious picture books. I got to experience the intense power of story as my son’s eyes would light up with each new page. And then I got to read the same book over and over and over again. I wouldn’t give up our cuddly reading time memories for the world.
But the stuff is not the holder of memories, we are. We realize that more each day.
As I watched my house be emptied out by various friends and strangers, I felt a peace wash over me… a freedom that I had been longing for for such a long time. It was a good feeling. It wasn’t until right now, as I write this post, that I’m acknowledging the emotional side of it all. I am leaving a part of myself behind, but only in pursuit of finding a bigger part of myself that has been in hiding.
We listed our house for sale during the purging process. The very next day after it went on the market, someone came for a showing, and within an hour we had an offer. The next day, papers were signed, and we are due to close on February 28th. Wow. Talk about ripping the bandaid right off! But this is exactly how we wanted it. There is no hesitation in our hearts or minds about this, and we are grateful that the circumstances are lining up perfectly with our desires.
I am so thankful that my family was willing to do this with me (yes, we even asked our sweet Axel). What an incredible journey this will be. We are preparing for the difficulties because they certainly exist, but we know it’s now or never. We are either entrepreneurs FOR SERIOUS, willing to risk it all, or we will continue to flail around attempting to do something we have no time for.
There has been some resistance from family and friends. We expected as much. But this is our time. We don’t want to become miserable old geezers who never went after their dreams. We want better for ourselves, and we want our son, and any future children, to know what is important – time, health, freedom, and relationships. We want them to know that we will back them 100% when they go after what they love, because they will watch us do it. Actions, not words. And that action happens now.
I can’t wait to meet you Oregon. See you on March 6th.
P.S. – Due to the recent change of plans, our podcast will not be launching until the end of March. We considered going ahead and launching, but we knew the episodes would not be able to remain consistent through our move, which is our highest priority. Thank you for being patient with us. We promise it will be worth the wait!